...But at least the week seems to be ending well.
Tuesday morning, when I was dropping the boys off at daycare, I got the news that we needed to find a new daycare. Mindy, our daycare provider, said that she was having a difficult time with two infants and she didn't feel she could meet everyone's needs. And since the other infant there is her grandson, that left us needing to find care elsewhere.
Initially, I was really angry. Then I was sad. I cried a lot on Tuesday. The mama bear in me was worried about Leland's transition to a new place - he has already experienced so much change in the last few months - and I was livid that she let it go this long. That she didn't make this decision sooner.
The more I have thought about it, the less angry I have become. Because, quite honestly, we saw this coming. We knew she was struggling, and we knew that if a choice had to be made it wouldn't be us. And I know the reason she waited so long was because she really wanted to make it work - she didn't want it to come to this.
Dave and I have been feeling for a little while now that perhaps this wasn't the best place for our family. Not that we don't love Mindy and not that there's anything wrong with the daycare, but for reasons I will not share here, it's just not the right fit for our family anymore. However, because of our relationship with her, and because we didn't want to put Leland through that transition, we were hoping to make it until summer. So, really, Mindy was just the one that was brave enough to say it first.
So Tuesday I was freaking out. I searched for daycares online and couldn't believe the cost of some centers - $400 a week for 2 kids? I don't make much more than that (anyone who thinks teachers are overpaid is delusional).
I asked friends for suggestions via Facebook (thank goodness for social media), and several friends responded. But it was really hard thinking about taking my boys to someone I didn't know.
Then I got a message from Julie, Leland's old daycare provider, saying she had openings (or would soon). He went to her for about 6 weeks when he was itty bitty. We loved her and she adores Leland. We left when Mindy had an opening because she was like a second mom to Dave - her son and Dave were best friends for years - and she lived 30 seconds away. We didn't want to make the switch, but how do you turn down someone that's practically family?
So anyway, when Julie said she had room for my boys, I didn't need to look any further. Like I said, we loved her. She is so loving and the general feeling you get at her home is cozy, loving, and friendly. What I loved when we went there before was that the kids all really seemed to love each other. They may have their little spats, but they mostly seemed to get along really well. I think that says a lot about Julie and the environment she creates.
I'm still pretty nervous about Leland's transition. Even though he's been to other daycares, Mindy's is the only one he really knows. I worry about taking him that first day (or week) and him being confused or scared. But I know that Julie will do everything she can to help him adjust. Once the shock wears off, I know he will love it.
I'm excited that there will be more kids Leland's age. There is a girl 6 months older, a boy a few months older, and a boy a few months younger. There's another girl too, but I don't know how old she is. Right now, Leland spends his day with two older girls and two babies, so he's like the middle child with no one to play with. And with him being so social, that's probably a little difficult for him.
Although I was angry at first, and this situation is somewhat stressful, I think that it's for the best, and I look forward to them starting with Julie. She has one opening right now, and one in a week or two, so Leland will be starting on Monday, and Alden will start soon after.